It’s Friday…

Second favorite F word

This week has been a long one.  Not in a bad way, just in a, I’m entirely grateful that it is almost over.  This weekend, I’m going on a road trip to a place I’ve never been.  I’m seriously excited as all heck for it.  I love going for a long drive.  It becomes an adventure.  What things will you see?  Who will you meet?  I find that I need to have little get-aways throughout the year in order to keep my own sanity.  This weekend is sure to fix me up good to last for at least another month. 🙂

What are you all up to this weekend?  Got any fun plans?

So stiff, I must be getting old…

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I had an amazing weekend.  Truly.  Friday night was spent full of laughter with some of my favorite ladies.  I went and relaxed on R’s couch while she primped and prepped so we could go out.  The plan was to go Karaoke, but it turned out there was a game on that was pushing back the time for singing and wailing.  🙂  My other friend J and one of her girlfriends met us at the bar and we had a fine time dishing about guys and love and life.  So much laughter, my abs hurt.  🙂  Then I felt a tickle on the back of my neck and turned to discover T had come to hang as well.  Such a surprise! 🙂  It was a lovely reminder of just how blessed I am with the amazing people in my life.

Saturday morning, I woke up, said a quick hello and goodbye to the bro and headed back to R’s for a day of relaxing, watching sci-fi, eating dick’s burgers (famous OLD hamburger joint round here) and more girl chat.  She let me in this weekend.  Shared her story.  The great loves, the losses, the joys and pains.  I, in turn, shared a little more of mine.  Talked about my mini-me and her father.  She understands now why I allowed the ex to adopt the mini-me.  It was the only way to make sure she’d be safe from her father.  And when he allowed it – I jumped at the chance.  Over the years, that man cost me close to $50,000 in legal fees and lawyers, all of it to try and protect her and I.  Heck maybe more.  I hung at her place until later in the evening and then T took me to a park to picnic overlooking the city lights with a pizza.  Other than the mosquitos that were out, the views were stunning. 

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Sunday, I helped T in his yard.  Pushed myself pretty hard.  I was NOT going to let my stupid heart get the better of me, had to take a few more breaks, hose myself down at one point with the hose because I was getting massively overheated, oh I’m sure it was quite a sight to see me pushing his lawn mower around swearing at the lawn and the mower equally as I’d get stuck in a divit and have to push with all my might to get it to move forward. hehe.  🙂  I started to get down on myself at one point – frustrated that the mind wants to take on work that my body just can’t necessarily do or keep up with… but I pushed on – the stubborn little aries always wins! 🙂 I felt really good about it when I was done tho, and he enjoyed the company while he was getting the work done.  I don’t think he’s used to it.  His roomie doesn’t seem to enjoy the outdoors or helping in the yard.  We were beyond filthy when we were done for the day and went swimming afterwards to both cool off and clean up a bit.  Then grubbed on a guilty pleasure – Mexican food. 🙂  Let me just say tho, today… I HURT!!  Sooo stiff I an barely move.  Does that mean I’m getting old?  OWWWW!!!!

I had my annual review today.  I was pleasantly surprised by some of the feedback and encouragement I got today.  Earned myself a nice pay increase, plus a decent sized bonus both cash and stock.  If only I wasn’t being garnished.  The tax man already takes a hefty chunk out of it, my garnishment will take more.  I hope to be left with enough to contribute to my vacation, and pay for some lawyer time to deal with the ex.  Would be nice if I could use it for other things as well, but I have a feeling that the cash I get won’t be much after all of that.  Ah well.  C’est la vie. 

I did some watching of video blogs tonight for people who visited st. Thomas.  It is absolutely gorgeous there.  I can’t quite get over the beaches that are soo white and the water is so clear.  The only thing that kind of made me nervous was the amount of crowds I saw.  Granted, I’m going during hurricane season, so maybe there won’t be as many people present.  Fingers crossed.  I’m really starting to get excited.  80 days to go (2 months, 19 days).  Wooo Hooo!!

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Goodnight neverland.  Much love.  XXO!

Wow, what a week!

I’m wiped. I should just succumb to it and fall asleep, but I wanted to take a few minutes to write.

Kicked some serious butt at work today. The amount of work I blasted through was truly quite astonishing.  I was super focused.

Then, my mentor met with me after work to walk through a presentation I’m giving next week. I’m a bit nervous, as I have to present for 90 minutes.

Came home, did a few chores and errands, relaxed a bit with the bro. It was a quiet night.

I’m looking forward to the weekend.  Get to go see a movie, do some shopping for a new TV, the real bro will be here on Sunday. I’m looking forward to time with him.  We’ve never had multiple days in a row together.  He’s been showing signs of slipping down a less than ideal path as far as life goes. My dad asked if I could motivate him. He’s going to be shown a different side of life while he’s here. I feel honored that dad asked for my help.  That is truly a first.

On one hand, he’ll be expected to pitch in and help. We earn our way through life with hard work. But I also want him to see some of the rewards that come with that kind of hard work and determination. I hope it will help him see that there’s more out there to achieve.  That he can do better.

I’m stuck on 2 paintings right now. One, I’m scared to go further because I dont want to mess it up.  And the second, I’m just not happy with what I’ve started. May start over.

I’ve had two songs in my head for about two weeks.  They make me think of someone and smile a sappy smile. One in particular always spurs me to day dream.  Sometimes, I get frustrated by that. Simmer down girl!  And sometimes, I embrace it and allow myself the fantasy. 

My penpal friend is talking to me again. Not really sure how to feel about it. On one hand, it’s nice to think my longest friend isn’t completely lost. But, to be honest, I’ve grown from where I was a year ago.  I’m not that girl.  And, I’m extremely happy and content. Not sure that I have a lot of room for anything other than the occasional penpal.  I prioritize my time for the people closest to me. Top priority could vary between work, the kids, the house, T, and my besties depending on the situation or circumstance.

The bro and I were discussing jealousy last night.  He had a moment when he was experiencing it and wanted my thoughts. From outside appearances, I’d doubt anyone would call me jealous or possessive, but even I’ll admit that there are the occasional times when I experience it. I just choose to not show it or make it an issue. I think it’s a normal reaction that reveals an insecurity within yourself.  And since I believe it is something only you can work on yourself, that is why I believe it is better to work thru it silently rather than lay it on your partner’s feet.  I think it’s best to remember that you love and trust your partner. And so long as there is two-way respect, communication, trust and love, things should stay pretty good.

Oy, my eyelids are dropping. Time for sleep. Goodnight neverland.

XXO.

P.S. Hello Mrs. Down Under. 🙂 T told me you were taking a peek at my blog. Hope you are well. I’ve heard such lovely things about you. Hope my blog doesn’t scare you too much.  Hope to chat soon. Hugs!