Holy crap man! This year, both, flew by and crawled at the same time. But it’s now officially December. On friday, we’ll put up our Christmas tree. It’s a bit late for me this year, but oh well. We do what we can. I’m lacking in motivation to actually work today, I’d much rather be at home working on my side business. Things are going well on that front – after this weekend, I’ll be ready to do a soft launch. Going to have my products in one store front before the christmas season ends just to see how it goes. Will give me the chance to change and tweak things a bit before officially launching next year. Until then, I’m continuing to build up my stock and test my product to ensure everything is working beautifully.
I’m looking forward to Christmas this year. I can’t wait to decorate the house. I can’t believe that as of March 17th, I’ll have been in the house for a full year. And hoo boy – what a year it’s been. I hugged my daughter extra last night, reminding her that I love her and am proud of her for the efforts she’s put in to change some things. She’s on a better path these days – and it’s a relief. But it’s also a lesson learned – I now know how quickly things can change, how easy it is to get off course. I will continue to keep a wary watch over her – to ensure she stays on track. Her depression really snuck up on us all – and I won’t let it blindside us again.
Yesterday I discovered that I’d been submitted for a job opening for a company I’ve been trying to get into for quite some time – the real bonus on the opening – it’s about 10 minutes from my house. I have my fingers crossed, as I’m quickly discovering that I’m not enjoying the commute to my existing job, among other things. I’d be a director again too – which would be nice. The job I’m at right now, this is the first time in 7 years that I’m not a manager – and I don’t mind at all – but my new manager keeps having me do work FOR him and it’s starting to get a bit awkward. It’s not my place to set the course for the team – it’s his, and I’m a bit leery to keep putting myself in a position to step on his toes.
Ben’s anniversary came and went, and I’m doing ok. Thanks to some friends, I wasn’t completely alone on Monday and it helped. I’ve definitely been a bit quiet this week tho.
I had no choice but to stick up for myself yesterday with my mom. I didn’t want to start a fight so close to christmas, but I’m finding that my tolerance of her negative energy is getting to be less and less. I made a request of her. All I asked was that I be treated with common courtesies and decency – just as you would with any person you interact with on a regular basis. My request was not met well at first, but once my step dad finally stopped trying to talk over me and listened to my request – I think he understood. Hopefully, he can help me navigate around my mom. I love her, hell – I love our family – but I’ve always felt like I don’t matter to them. Unless I’m not doing what they want me to – then it’s world war 3. LOL. Thankfully, I managed to simmer them down just enough to avoid utter catastrophe. I’m not entirely pleased with the outcome – I always feel like compromising is one sided for me – but at least the war was avoided.
Well – I better get to work. Thinking of you Neverland. Wish we could somehow hang out and play hookie today! 😀 Talk soon!